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Take Control of Your Gifted Life and Live

I encourage everyone to break out of other’s control and pursue your belief. Do not let yourself be your own limit because of what other people believe.

Read a great quote by Steve Jobs. Building things is the only way I see that will progress your life forward from a status quo established. Building things can be as simple as writing a post.

Maybe status quo is good for stability? but that seems very boring, unfair, and unfulfilling to me.

When you grow up, you tend to get told the world is the way it is and your life is just to live your life inside the world. Try not to bash into the walls too much. Try to have a nice family life, have fun, save a little money. That’s a very limited life. Life can be much broader once you discover one simple fact. And that is: Everything around you that you call life was made up by people that were no smarter than you. And you can change it, you can influence it, you can build your own things that other people can use. Once you learn that, you’ll never be the same again.


I find Job’s quote above a good articulation to what I experienced growing up. Even as a child before my father’s passing, I was always curious to why things were the way they are as all children’s curiosity. My father’s early departure had really forced me to mature quicker than normal all the while capturing the energy of what would have been teenage angst. I think the angst or entitled mindset never really happened because of a continued curiosity from all of the why’s asked, and more importantly what I can do about it. Why me? Why despite being poor, I would also lose my father, to be left alone with only my hardworking, elderly widowed mom. Growing up alone, I became used to finding my own answer because no one was really there to tell me why or this is just how it is. I had to adapt and learn quickly the rules of the world in order to support my mom and myself.

One of the byproducts of adapting was realizing the systems the world has in place such as do x, y, z for a, b, c, it meant there’s a game to be played. I loved video games, and boy did I also played the system’s game well. I knew I had to work hard in high school because I had no money for college and it paid off with a full ride to university.

I grew up in a culture that as an understatement, greatly valued education and risk aversion. Similar to what Jobs mentioned, my parents placed great importance on education so that I may have a white-collar job, making a comfortable living with stability unlike their journey of volatile, manual labor. Surprisingly my Mom had eventually picked up a bit of entrepreneur spirit by opening her own nail salon; however, the stress was too great for her after my father’s death and from unethical business practices of the landlord. They wanted me to have a skill through formal education so that no one may take this source of living away from me. I wholeheartedly agree with them and still do, despite harboring some disdain and regret for what I had believed.

Growing up even since elementary, it was always natural to know that education was of great important. Everything non-essential such as video games, relationships, extracurricular were before education, unfortunately this meant grades primarily instead of learning. My parents are also number ones, which meant their desires as well.  I knew instinctually to get good grades in high school, get good grades in college, get good grades in professional school, get a job, make good money, marry, buy a home, have kids, and retire.

Please don’t confuse them for tiger parents or in this case tiger parent. They had simply wanted the best chance for me through education to have a stable, comfortable life, something they never had.  My parents had never finished high school because they never had the chance due to a war that killed millions of their countrymen. I owe them everything and am inspired to live to my fullest potential so that their sacrifice would not be in vain, escaping war so that I could have a better life and more opportunities than they had. They drifted to a new land with nothing and staked everything on my better life without any expectations for themselves, there’s no word for my gratitude.

When my dad died, I made the decision on my own during my undergrad junior year to pursue medicine to become a physician. I wanted to be able to heal the sick like my father so that their children and cherished loved ones wouldn’t grow up alone. Until that year I had wanted to be a pharmacist, naively enticed with a relatively quick program compared to medicine and $100,000 salary for little work. I wanted to come out quick and help my elderly mom.

Selecting medicine was the beginning of 3 stages of realization that set myself free from the control of others. I was never the same again. I no longer have my ignorant bliss, and more painfully, cannot remain willfully ignorant.
1. Understanding myself better and why I want what I want

I was immature when I first pursued pharmacy because I grew up poor and sought to fulfill my immediate needs rather than thinking of the potential I would be wasting, selling myself short for a bit of money but not having any real impact on the world. This was my first major realization that my life mattered and I didn’t want to be controlled by lower physiological needs or what was the risk-aversed path a lot of my peers took seeking the same as I wanted and what my parents wanted for me. I didn’t want to spend forty years putting pills in bottles while fighting in a rat race to the bottom (post about pharmacy school to come). I wanted more. I wanted purpose. I wanted impact and to not squander the precious life my parents gave me, I pursued medicine and worked hard with purpose. I played the game again as was required by med school admission albeit with genuine passion for medicine and succeeded. I’d put my parents’ hard work and sacrifices to shame for not reaching my full potential, safely.

I would say after my first realization of pursing medicine for purpose unlike pharmacy was the stage of understanding myself better and what I wanted. I wanted purpose and caught fire with medicine.

2. Realizing the realities of the world and the systems others have in place

My second realization during the summer before matriculation to medical school crushed my purpose and dropped me to the lowest point in my life. Losing my purpose was one of the worst things I’ve ever felt, akin to dying when realizing then that my life was meaningless.

A very close person brought a very interesting and seemingly simple observation that physicians lacked creativity and were preservers as a result, waking me from my naive idealization about medicine. I lacked foresight and grasp of external forces that have an immense hold over the profession. I had considered after spending a significant portion of work and was prepared to spend the rest of my life pursuing a calling to make up for my inability to help my father when he needed me most, all the while neglecting my elderly widowed mom from my life. I can’t stomach the idea of running around for 8 years of my life in debt and for the rest of my life for the deepest care of others while essentially abandoning my mom to let her slave over humiliatingly for her own living as a widowed, elderly manicurist worker. I can’t let her live her life like this from beginning to end.

In regards to the profession that I would have spent the rest of my life in, it requires true, untainted, naive passion. I commend all physicians who truly believe in this as their calling to heal others. It’s noble. I see it; however, as a game not worth playing. I’ll be short in this post about the topic.

Many in med school did X, Y, Z; high GPA, high Medical College Admission Test, medical experience, some luck and an acceptance will most likely happen. The med students then do the same again on steroids; high GPA, high STEP scores (first part of board exams), more medical experiences, some luck and an acceptance to residency programs will most likely happen. Residency training in the U.S. is necessary to practice as a physician in the U.S. so without the full completion of this whole process, you’ve wasted 12 years minimum of your life and probably the rest of it due to an unpayable student loans without that high salary expected. This leaves the students to the whim of anyone senior to them in a position of power, many leaving their dignity if needed. Throughout the 8 year training, an endless pecking order process is encouraged as the natural way of things and tradition without question. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve met countless good-willed doctors, but there are a few who are terrible beings. One of my mentors, a doctor, is one of the most genuine, passionate, open-minded, caring person I know.

All of this wouldn’t deter anyone with the passion they’ve conveyed to admissions unless they’ve realized some sickening, discouraging truth along the great journey of medicine. In the interest of keeping to the theme of living free, I will not go into great details regarding a broken healthcare system in this post. I did not want to sacrifice my life for the sake of being profiteered by pharmaceuticals, hospitals and its investors, legislature, and insurance companies, all the while being scapegoated to the public to conceal their greed. These entities who bear none of the sacrifices physicians go through for the public good, yet they are well positioned to control the lives and determination of physician’s own profession, warping it into a money making vehicle.

I don’t mean to be dramatic when I say life sacrificed because it would have been well worth it had the profession retained control of itself and allowed innovation to improve its good to society. Innovation; however, is not possible in modern medicine because creativity leads to lawsuits when not following every procedure in the book to the last letter. Being a physician today is much like a highly skilled, human mechanic, and in that respect with empathy aside, robots do a better job (but who’s to say AI wouldn’t pass the Turing test some day?). Of course it’s important to perform procedures correctly when trusted with another’s life, and this is not to belittle physicians who I have the utmost respect for. But the nature of the profession to me is dreadfully boring as a result of stifled creativity, depressing due to control by others’ self serving interest and public misguided disdain as a result, and tiring as many conditions are self-inflicted and people want a quick fix such as obesity, genetically wrought diseases are different. Mostly seeing the same problem everyday and changing one life at a time until your own is over, repeat ad infinitum. No progress made compared to creating actual value through innovation that will change the world.

My journey into medicine helped me better understand myself and taught me two important lesson; it allowed me to realize that there is a hegemony in place for all aspect of this world almost entirely concerning money, even in what I had considered the noblest of professions, and the fear established that preserves the hegemony. Hegemonies are the ones in the position to establish systems and set norms that protect their largely favored interest, regardless of detriment to humanity’s progress. Intimidation set repercussion for not following the rules of theirgame, with hollow diversions on the other hand to keep people distracted from rocking the boat. They create an ideology reinforced by your family, friends, and society that fear for change. Don’t rock the boat and you’ll be fed.. by the game owners. Fear and uncertainty is powerful.

3. Overcoming fear and embrace uncertainty 

Realizing how pitiful such existence is irreversible, yet moving forward against uncertainty and discouragement may seem insurmountable.

I found after leaving what I had known to be the construct to the way of living, the most difficult part is overcoming that lifeless standstill of not being able to return to an ignorant bliss of doing as told to live in the rewards others want, yet directionless to move forward.

There was as expected a period of openly shaming of my decision to leave medical school. I was called a quitter, a loser, a coward, and a shame to my parents by other family members, friends, and even strangers. These put me downs though not of much influence, definitely hurt. “Why didn’t you just finish medical school, you’ve came all this way for something people would die for,” “you’ve become selfish in not wanting to be one of the most altruistic profession,” and “even if you didn’t like it, you’ll get paid so much, suck it up cause no other job will make that much money,” were the most common comments, almost pleads. Why did other people care so much about my life? If they wanted it that badly, why didn’t they work for it?

Eventually I grasped through these same why’s I had asked myself that everyone is only upset because that’s what they’ve been told how to live and what to want. Fear originates from within and shouldn’t be mistaken for what others are kept in and instilled by the ones taking advantage; they don’t want to bite the hand that feeds them. What they should fear is themselves. They were taught by others to fear uncertainty, uncertainty being dangerous to money, and money was worth trading a meaningful life for security or cheap materialism. I want to feed myself and live my own life. I sound crazy to them, but stepping back, everyone looked crazy to me.

Unstifled curiosity as an unintended product of growing up alone, without my parents being around much, gave way to embracing uncertainty and things I had perceived as fear. I had to learn a lot on my own and this sparked my curiosity because I didn’t have anyone telling me how this or that was suppose to be. These experiences I credit for laying the foundation of understanding that everything that happens is based on perspective, nothing inherently good or bad. There will always be another side of an event that may have been perceived as negative, but nothing can be solely one aspect when nothing is inherently of anything. We give things power by our own perspective. I had unlimited power as a result, and everything now relied on attitude. Uncertainty now became exciting, a breathe of fresh life.

Without certainty, innovation is without bounds. Create your own change, your own living, and influence by building value that will help others. That’s why tech is so appealing, almost every industry is vulnerable to massive disruption by anyone who is able to break out of fear and create value on their own. With my mom, I deeply struggled with trying to convince her that I too wanted entrepreneurship, but I was lucky she stood for my happiness. I want to build things myself and create value that others want, not the other way around in a consumerist mindset. I wasn’t going to consume what others wanted either.

I only feel bad because delusion or not, becoming a physician and not bashing against the confines of others would have been a quiet, easy way to honor my parents’ hard work. If there were any regrets, it would be my failure to honor them if I didn’t succeed now.


Though initially I hadn’t realized what I know now, to not play the game at all because my life or anyone’s life isn’t and shouldn’t be a game. I don’t want to play someone else’s game and get rewarded and punished by their will. I don’t want to not only be dependent but more importantly limited by what others allow me to be. I am human and the human spirit has no bounds. I see everyone the same, entering this world no more gifted than any other. It deeply saddens me when people lose their will and waste their gift of life by succumbing to suffering and fear. I wish everyone the dignity respected by life. We all have individual free will, anything otherwise is constructed by another person to serve their interest.

I find myself never the same again as before. I feel reborn.

Still in the Sky

I wasn’t sure what to title my first blog post from a self-hosted site, whether it is actually a new start in my journey or just the interesting, unexpected flow of life.

I should introduce myself before going any further. I am a medical school dropout who chose to pursue technology with hopes to impact the world on a larger scale. I want to spend my life reaching my potential to help progress humanity to the greatness that humans are capable of.

I am very excited to build things as an entrepreneur and someone who greatly appreciates the inter-connective power of mobile apps and the Internet.

I hope to one day usher in a technology that may set me in the position to disrupt the status quo of injustice and suffering.

I will definitely go into more detail slowly about my journey prior to withdrawing from medical school to pursue my desire for greater impact.


I have returned to school for University of Texas at Austin’s computer science program. This time around having obtained a molecular biology degree already and entered medical school, I am much more seasoned and see with new perspective. I’ve realized after going through undergrad once, was that the education and grades earned weren’t what’s important (unfortunately grades alone is the most important factor for med school admission). In hindsight, I strongly believe the most important tradeoff for attending a university is for its resources of dense, highly motivated individuals, huge funding projects, and connections. It is much alike an accelerator/incubator if valued in that sense. Without a doubt I love the opportunities available for developers/programmers at UT and the strong, growing startup culture of Austin.

I didn’t really like the city at first, but it is definitely growing on me. I dreaded the weather, being sunny, humid, and very hot almost 80% of the year. The startup scene is also a double-edged sword, though amazing for what I want to do such as founding tech startups, the food is really a hit or miss that is much overhyped due to it’s nature of being edgy, modern, and widely endorsed by my young freshmen peers (ironically I guess I’m a freshmen too!!). Due to UT’s policies I have to trudge through filler courses I’ve taken already again such as psychology and marketing. The only classes I’m looking forward to are ones relevant to computer science and excitingly Long Horn Startup hosted by Bob Metcalfe (the man invented ethernet) and Josh Baer (founder of Capital Factory).

The startup seminar was the energy I was looking for when deciding to return to school, especially what I expected UT to offer, a vast network and smart individuals. I am definitely neglecting the irrelevant courses to make time for kindling my curiosity in this new field, especially enjoying solving problem with real tools; most importantly, building things.

Being a little late in the game, I am highly motivated to speed up the learning  through personal projects and even start building the technologies I dream of. I’ve grown to love reading books, especially about software development, website development, SEO, marketing, selling, history, and inspiration.

I am currently working on a few iOS projects that I hope to bootstrap to market and/or develop minimum viable products for accelerators/incubators.

In addition to building apps, I wanted to dabble into building my brand, with my personal website and blog as my headquarter. Owning and hosting this blog is a fun learning experience. I have a second domain askyforever.com that I will use to experiment and build using HTML/CSS to what this wonder WordPress powered blog looks and functions like.

I love taking risks and coming back for a computer science degree may seem contradictory, but I am living for others I love as well. So as much as I wanted to go all in, I have to consider their wellbeing as well.  I needed a fallback, but entrepreneurship is by far the main game plan.

My name is Andrew Vuong, and I am a developer, entrepreneur, tech lover, and Med School Dropout.

This is only half of the story, my other half is living with me in Austin as well. 🙂

I’m excited to blog and share my exciting experience into the uncertainty of life. Follow my journey here or on:

GitHub/andrewtvuong
YouTube/andrewtvuong


I’ve taken a leap of faith and have not quite landed yet. I hope I can be of great use to this world when I do.